AVAST YE

Blaaargh

Time flows on, ever onwards to the yonder horizon of the vast unknown…

As it goes on, I feel a little bit more at peace with myself and emotions which hasn’t truly been something I can say that’s happened for a good 2-3 years now. I’ve learned to not give a toss about the unimportant things. I have a few things going for me, I have a band to front and play for, write and drive forward and I have good friends who would do the world of things to support me. 

Alright, I’m still the ambiguous, illusive, random joker that I usually always am and that seems to get a lot worse and adrenaline driven around very hot girls, god dammit man, as if my chatup lines and attempts weren’t already bad enough my talent for weirding some people out too much to the point I scare them off is honestly getting a bit of a bother!! Eeeeh, hit and miss I suppose.

I’m not going to be all mr Negative here, I’m alright at the minute. I have no luck with the ladies but patience will pay off for that. I’m 22 years old now, the world lies endless before me, what will come and what will go will be the gates of heaven and hell intertwined, I’ll be caught up in this maelstrom of events again and again and if I can keep coming out on top, surely my luck will change sooner or later right?

I can only hope.

Peace out!

More madness.

Things are still on thin ice, the slightest step too heavy and every hope of rebuilding Culloden anew is gone. I had a massive rant on it before, I am absolutely devastated that it wasn’t meant to be, definitely but I am hoping I can sway Harry and Graeme into trying again.

Harry IS though, up for doing drums for my Black/Doom Metal side project which I will be pouring everything into, despite it being recording only for now. Mael Mordha, Black Sabbath, Primordial and Bathory are what I’m looking to base off for that.

Its called Hallicarnassus. Named after Halicarnassus the place where the mausoleum of mausolos lies, one of the sevent ancient wonders but with an extra L in like my surname ;)

GAH

If I’m not at conflict with my own emotions over things like “love” “infatuation” and just hating being single which I admit happens quite a lot despite how much I try to not let it get me down but I suppose that’s my own fault. I’ll rant a little on that, because despite there being a fair few girls I know who I would honestly journey to the ends of time to win, I don’t really have the ability to break the ice and go for the flag so to speak. But enough on that, I get myself down and get over it again like a vicious circle time and time again but hey while I’m on a rant may as well lay that off to whoever gives a toss.

Right, for the main cheese. Internal band conflicts have caused us to, well disband. One of the guitarists, Scarlett has for a while kinda overstepped his boundaries, became a bit too controlling, demanding, oppressive as if he was trying to take over and have the band be about him. Harry the drummer basically took charge and said leave everything to him. Now as this Scarlett lad aimed his mini hitler complex at me and my bass playing for “his songs” more and more I said I was going to do something but Harry said he’ll sort it, don’t do anything and nothing got done. So one week when Scarlett’s at Bloodstock I took over lead vocals for the day again and had us revamp an old song, which came back together and flowed musically far better than anything Scarlett had tried to write with us.

Eventually I persuaded Graeme that we were so much better overall, musically as a three piece for performing and for writing, getting things done, that Scarlett was no longer of use.

Right, so after this, we agreed the plan for recording which is still going down, would be The Void and 3 covers because Scarlett’s songs weren’t ready, now when Scarlett got wind of this, he kicked off and despite how much me and Graeme had told him his songs weren’t ready he was having none of it, in desperation to make us get things done and do all lead vocals despite him being no better than a novice for singing as his vocals were so weak, that he kept trying to push, trying to deny the plan and get his way and literally threw a childish tantrum. The Graeme kicked off back and told him to “fuck off, if you don’t like it then quit” then I jumped in after and backed Graeme up, told him take the plan offered or don’t do anything and then essentially we just got tired of his tantrum and booted him out.

Now Harry, didn’t take too kindly to this. Thought he did nothing wrong, didn’t deserve to be booted and was “Good” for the band. No, Harry. No. See, if someone refuses to learn covers, if someone tries to take over the band and tries to force people to play their instruments how they want, if someone throws a tantrum when they can’t get their own way and even tries calling someone who tries to rival his position “egotistical” no. They should be kicked on the spot, outrightly. I stand by the decision made.

So Harry has decided to leave Culloden as he thinks there’s no point anymore, as a three piece we can’t get anywhere and that its “shite” “boring”. I haven’t once opposed Harry before, I haven’t once did something or had a vote on a decision that wasn’t for the sake of the band but, honestly. Culloden worked best as a three piece before, we learned covers quick, we wrote originals quick and the only thing holding us back was ambition for the final push, on his behalf. He had no transport or will to play gigs with drumkits already there or play sets that weren’t 90 minutes. That held us back, and if he were patient, we could have achieved great things together.

We can’t replace the lad for the style Culloden has so we’ve put everything on hold, disbanded unless a compromise post recording can be made.

Its sad to see all this effort, money and passion go to waste and I will miss the band but I’m on the lookout for something else now Culloden’s dead in the water.

I’ve had a growing liking for Doom and Black Metal and want to put something together in that style. Need a drummer for that.

Graeme wants a Motorhead/Judas Priest/Saxon project with me going, need a drummer for that.

So one chapter closes, another tall tale begins. Let’s see what the future holds, can I get a girl before a new band? Hrrrm. Interesting question to myself there…

Boredom!

I’m considering getting my sides cut off and sporting a mullet… Random…

Also I need to catch up on some anime and manga. Shikabane Hime looks good!